Christmas?

Christmas~ Its never been happening in my life...I feel extremely lonely when Christmas is near...cause no one is dating/inviting/asking me to hang out...well..there are but they're all msn buddies that im not close with and i never met them before.
The Christmas songs that i play while i turn on my pc makes it even worst which i dont know why...
well im not a Christian but i too, can sense the spirit of it. Everyone is having parties, going on a trip, hanging out somewhere nice
Someone asked me to join them in a club but...club and Christmas doesn't mix together...well its a NO NO for me...other than that im happy with it...sigh* Now i started wonder where are the friends that i usually hang out with during Christmas? Enjoying themselves and of course...probably forgoten about there's someone called EDDIE LEW..but those are not worth to called as FRIENDS....i'll die faster hanging out with them anyway.
ps: Emo lord wont be revived without them.
yeap! im talking bout those that i used to hang out with..secondary school dudes...that bunch of morrons~

All i want for Christmas is YOU!!!!!!
but too bad you're not with me...sigh*

XD

sorry for scaring the heck outta you with my LARGE pic...
will spare sometime to resize it!

Me X likey Old Town White Coffee shop..

went class for a short short short test today..Miss Chai's class was canceled =.=" and who on earth will attend PR lecture class right? LOLx so after class i got a whole day of free time so randomly followed Jessy and Stepheny(sorry if i spelled it wrongly) to Mid valley when i heard that they're going. I can straight take KTM to home so why not right? Besides..i wanna see how they decorate the stage this year but it is so disappointing that they are using the same things from last year and maybe from the year before that for the deco..How Disappointing!
We went Old town cause the "tong sui" restaurant was still closed(masih cuti haji kot!) Ordered Magie mee and still felt kinda hungry so i ordered a Kaya+butter xxx toast from a MALAY waiter. After waiting for some times, i told a Chinese waitress to check for the one that i ordered and it came after few minutes. The funny thing is..after i finish it, that malay waiter gave me something that Jia Wei usually order, and of course i told them i dint order it but they said its the one i ordered o.O? So i opened the menu and check again..he asked a woman to check for me and she pointed at the one that i ordered and the code was really 301; the exact food that i ordered. It was totally a W.T.F. moment. So the one i ate was NOT what i ordered!? fuck that! This kinda shits happens when you dont know what the hell you ordered! What to do? The two waiter was like :" yea this is the one you ordered, 301 right?" and that kinda make me feel like " its not our fault but yours" urgh! Fuck it! I told them 3 times that i ordered 301!! and freaking pointing to the menu with my freakin finger!!! So i just ate all of it(i know im an idiot)
DO NOT HIRE FOREIGN WORKERS WITH POOR ENGLISH!!!


Went Jessie and Stephanie's place(we dint really went inside) to let Stephanie change and we got company! LOLx Steph's elder sister(June) and younger brother(Adrian)came along...hmmmm that is what i like bout English educated people, they talk like non-stop with each other LOLx and chatting like buddies(C'mon lar i dun talk to my sister that way so its normal for me to be...jealous?)
I can hear that her sister's been studying in other country her english's kinda...GOOD! Its UK i guess, heard she mentioned once.
After hanging out in McD we waited for Steph's friend (ex) and went to watch "BOLT". I was not bad, it managed to make us Laugh-Out-Loud. I just cant stop laughing at the hamster in the movie..he's damn retarded!!

Went window shopping after the movie.
Shopped for bout 1 hour plus and of course, Mr. KC is on his bullshitting/crapping mood...LOLx
Had a great time with them. Lurve it


I dont know why Carefour is still doing it to the customers who bring bag pack. They are still tying the zip of the biggest part of the bag pack.
I was talking to Adrian and this stupid malay guard just cant keep his asshole mouth shut.
Me :I dont know why they are still doing this. Seriously those BIG sensors in front of the entrance are USELESS.
Malay Guard:Complaint dekat dalam bukan sini.
I was like halo am i talking to you? Save your mouth for blowjob, PIG!
There's a more effective way to prevent thieves lar halo! use your brain and not your dick! I can still keep things in the other pockets of the bag pack lar idiot!(as if im stealing something) >.<"

fuck it!

Another event canceled on 13th december! The concert from NTV7 is on the 13th too! Fuck it! I just cant get my ass there! just great! Who to blame? those mother fuckers and bitches who's paying for the fucking lame shit ever dinner. Its my grandma's bday dinner...yea right~ its just a fucking way to show how rich they are and making people to look up to them. like WHOA so nice of them! just Fuck off.
Basicaly darren's bday party(which i promissed to go LONG TIME AGO) is canceled...
PD trip with classmates is ALSO CANCELED
now SIPE Ang concert which will be held opposite Amcorp Mall...

FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKERS AND BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking hate the word "HOME"

I just dont know when i started to hate my home. Since...i move to this small and ugly "home"? Seriously i hate the people living in my home and the one staying in Klang(that bitch sister). I use to say "i love my home and family" but not now. I even think i love my friends more than my family. Yes i know what you're thinking, Im Stupid right? Well i just hate my home and the way it is. Why does almost everyone have their own PC at their primary school age but not me? Why does my friends know more than the world than i do? I dont mean i've been pampered too much from parents. I've never been pampered! Everytime when i ask for permission to go out or something like that. Mom will just say NO. I still remember when i was in standard 5, my classmates were discusing bout hanging out in Subang Perade on that coming weekend. I was thinking they are so COOL; they know how to go somewhere that i dont know how to go or where the place is. After graduating and moving to secondary school, few of my friends invited me to go somewhere nice to have lunch by taking a cab but i said no cause im scared of going somewhere far and im not familiar with. Besides, i dont have that money to go; my daily allowance was just RM3.00!(Unbelievable!!) What on earth can i order for my lunch?! Mineral water? After a year and a half u moved to kepong which never happy with, i got into a school and was in a class full of "lala chai" and samseng. Being a Oh-so-good boy in a class like that is really suffering. I was always alone and only have a few friends. Most of them were working and i thought working in this kinda age is awesome/cool/whatever shit it is. I never get the chance to work outside cause im not allowed to, only worked with my dad as a helper, working like a cow and no salary given. I told them im quiting and they said its a must to help your father in his business. Well i dont mind if im working in the office but hell no! There aint any office or even a permanent working place. Imagine lar..wireman dun have an office lar ok. So everytime when im working with dad, i'm just like locked in a room and work. This is what my mom call it "know more bout the world" while im locked in a fucking worst place. I know nothing bout the world.
I guess that is why im in PR course. But the same thing is happening. There's more people that i think they're cool. There's few friends of mine knows people from the media industry, Some even can handle a whole event all by themself. Some even earning big money. Cool huh? well it is for me!
I never stop feeling like a loser, chicken, coward, etc.

It feels even suck when you're having parents that is not believing you and i DO have parents like that.
im just so jealous of the life the others are having...

to be continued...